wow i never write on lj anymore. anyway i'm making a mix of "sexy songs" and need some imput. this is what i have so far:
cherry-amy winehouse dave matthews band-crash into me etta james- son of a preacher man george michael-father figure (i feel kinda like a creep for thinking this song is hot) hawksley workman- striptease john mayer trio- don't need no doctor the donnas-too fast for love tracy chapman-for my lover corrine bailey rae-i'd like to leonard cohen- i'm your man led zepplin- whole lotta love sam cooke-bring it on home to me
what else should i download? what song do you think is the sexiest thing ever?!
so i never thought the day id stray from livejournal but ive started a new blog. im going to keep this one for my diary but my new one is just all political/environmental musings. please please read it and comment. i will love you forever if you do!
happy canada day bitches. i came across this flyer in the dundas subway station so read and discuss!
canadian apartheid pie
-take one beautiful land of First Nations Peoples -add european troops and settlers -beat slowly using a big stick until white -mix in alcohol and disease -separate original peoples from land and place on reserves -reduce at a low cost until barely visable -back with lots of propaganda for several hundered years or until the colour changes -remove from debate and sprinkle with new immigrants, foreign aid, and peackeeping to sweeten for presentation -serves most of the population except original peoples
and just for shits the radical cheerleaders version of o canada (the only one i ever sing)
o canada our home ON native land we dont want education sold to a major brand we'll learn the history of mc donals and how great nike shoes are and we'll never learn of exploitation of workers near and far join us in the streets fight until we're free o canada, why did you pepper spray me? o canada, fuck of and let me be
so here are my thoughts 2 hours into this canada day: its funny how man made borders can shape the world so radically. lines are drawn on a map and with those lines identies are drawn. us not them. battles are fought for those lines. people live and die for lines. im a candian but what does that really mean? that i like beer and hockey? that im not american? just because i happened to be born within a certian set of lines i have so much privledge. i have free health care and relatively affordable education. i have the right to be critical about my country without being hung for it. my queer friends can express their love through marriage if that is their choice, and speaking of choice canadians women have access to free and safe abortions. of course its not like queer folk and pro-choice women are considered canada's finest...im also white (or pass for white...), straight, middle class woman who grew up in the suburbs. if i had been born somewhere else would i still be the person i am? would i be so vocal if the stakes were raised? although these lines on the map called canada have been good to me i cant forget that this country is built on blood, on slaughter and on apartheid. so this canada day while you are all getting shitfaced, remember you're just celebrating lines on a map. maybe there is nothing wrong with that, im not really sure. if you think canada is the best country on earth then do something to help other countries get to our standard, if you think canada is the worst country on earth do something to fix things at home. i may legally be a citizen of canada but id rather be a citizen of a group mobilizing for change, to be the group that errases the lines on the map.
peace out from "the true north, strong and free" liz
today i watched "an inconvient truth" and "who killed the electric car" yeah im a million years behind on my documentaries but im poor and they were on tv. (god bless TMN) AND im dying from my uterus so i was pretty much useless. ANYWAY i liked both. an inconvinent truth wasnt that shocking to me given my education and whatnot but it was good to have all that information displayed so suscintly (i cant spell) although i found their "solutions" at the end to be problematic but ive already touched on that in that big environmental rant i wrote a few months ago.
who killed the electic car was super interesting. i didnt really know anything about electric cars. i thought they had never made one that was really practical but they had. now im really sad because i want one and they dont exist anymore :(
so i realized something last night when i was lying in bed not sleeping. i realized that i had been deluding myself into believing i was somehow at the top of his list. that if the situation were diferent we'd be together. but i realized that not only am i not at the top of the list, i'm not even on it. it was then that i was bitchslapped by reality. i won't pretend i didn't cry, and that it still dosn't burn, but i think it's a good thing i finally figured it out. the task at hand is...how do i take him off the top of my list?
sorry i havnt been writing latley. i just havnt been in an internet sort of mood latley. anyway im having fun in hockley. it will be nice when mike (melissas brother) comes home in a few weeks and ill have someone else my age to hang out with.
i finally heard back from everdale i'll be volunteering there july 14th to sepember 1st. im equally parts terrified and excited. im slightly terrified because ill be camping the whole time, ive never really camped before! also its really long days and im not sure if im up to it physically but ive been going on 6km walk/jogs about 3 times a week. if i keep that up things should be ok. more than anything im terrified by the social aspect of it all. i want to make friends and not be the weird girl in the corner. ive come pretty far with my social anxiety and am doing a lot better so i think as long as i think positivly and actually make an effort to talk to people it will be ok. i am excited for the oppourtinity to work on a huge farm! im also looking at this as an oppourtinity to prove to myself that i can do anything i set my mind to. i have a million excuses why i shouldnt quit my job and work for free on a farm but hey, sometimes you have to do the unthinkable.
today we went to vaughn mills which is this huge ass mall. its funny how when im walking around with kade people look at me differently. you get these weird nods approval that say "good girl, you are fulfilling your destiny as a woman" its bizare. i also found it funny that out of the entire mall the store i spent the most money at, and was the most excited by, was the "pro bass shop" bahaha.
im feeling this song right now: orange sky by alex murdoch
"When I am alone When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone When I've lost all care for the things I own That's when I miss you, that's when I miss you, that's when I miss you You are my home"
today i am grateful for: -long tight hugs -punk rock pinky swears -the first blue jays of spring -trees in bloom -construction paper and glue sticks -purchased train tickets -being instrumental in other people's lives
i could do without: -unwated advances -early mornings/late nights
i just sent an email off to everdale asking to volunteer from the middle of july to the end of august. 6 weeks of camping and hard ass days on the farm. im so psyched. hopefully they have room for me.
today i ran a million errands trying to get some last minute things i need. i got a sleeping bag because as i remember melissas will be too little for me. shes letting me use her tent though which is awsome. i got a shitty one that was on sale for $9.99 at canadian tire. it will be good enough. i also went to the bank street value village and got a bunch of bandannas/hankies and a sweet nylon MEC bucket hat with a strap. it will serve me well and is less dorky looking than a straw hat. i also got some more sports bras because im not going to get my good bras all stinky. plus they are pokey. i also stocked up on all natural soap and toothpaste. im more or less set. i need some shorts and flip flops but thats about it.
to do still: -call telus about reducing my cellphone plan -call dentist about squeezing in one last cleaning while i still have coverage -figure out if im taking the train/if my mom is driving me/when i am going to go -find sunscreen/bug stuff/etc etc -a million other things
